Dear John: A Love Letter

Last warm night, I went back to the place where it all started.
I was seated in the same chair where we sat that night. A not so famous place called saluté, drinking your favorite jack daniels, alone. I decided to stay for a while and mull things over.I feel that the place is really haunted. I can still feel you, here. The bar is airconditioned but i can still feel the air rushing through. I remember when we first met, I secretly called you -the man across the table-. Same eyes, same smile..shifted around me. I always wanted to be your girl. The one who gets to keep you, worries about you, love you and to support you. I always wanted to be in your world.
It's been months and you're still here. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me. It hurts coz im tied up. I will never be that girl but please, be still in my life. Let's not finish what we have started. Hug, chat, unlimited text, watch movies, sing our hearts out loud, coffee, cigarettes and us. Help me to be a better person. I wanna be better with you. It just saddened me coz things change, far from it was before.
 Ours maybe the shortest "close" mutual relationship but i learned a lot compare to those being together for years. I will always remember "our pinkie promise inside the cab" that you will never leave me. And yes! i take everything seriously. Those things you said are all locked up here <3.

Nostalgia

" There has to be a moment at the beginning when you wonder whether you’re in love with the person or in love with the feeling of love itself.

If the moment doesn’t pass, that’s it—you’re done. And if the moment does pass, it never goes that far. It stands in the distance, ready for whenever you want it back. Sometimes it’s even there when you thought you were searching for something else, like an escape route, or your lover’s face. " 

Down the Rabbit Hole

“I started making plans, thinking we would get that far. ” 

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Holding On

Hold On

You tried so hard to be someone
That you forgot who you are
You tried to fill some emptiness
‘Til all you had spilled over
Now everything’s so far away
That you don’t know where you are, you are


When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to 
For you to belong to

When it’s hard to be yourself
It’s not to be someone else
Still everything’s so far away
That you forget where you are, you are


When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to 

Hold on 


When all that you wanted
And all that you had
Don’t seem so much
For you to hold on to 
For you to belong to

a beautiful mess

It sucks to be so excited with something or someone
you can't actually have.
I was better off alone til he came.
That feeling when someone embraced you for a long time,
then you suddenly felt connected, the very minute
you feel it, you know you can't let go.
This is exactly what i feel when i permitted myself
to be involved. 
There's always someone who will come into
your life, depart yet changed you totally.

A guy out there who was meant to come my way.
The one who told me what his plans and dreams are.
The one who brushed the hair out of my eyes.
The one who stare at me during movies
The one who text to say goodnight or just because he wants to hug me.

14days-- that's all it took to get close to him.
I maybe nothing to HIM but i realized i could be somebody to someone else.
I was so happy the night i spent with him and this is the part i fear the most.
I'm scared of loosing someone who's really and can never be mine.
I may sound selfish but i want us to make things work and if not
I want us to stay together and keep the connection we had.

ihugmybabe

" Missing someone isn't about how long it has been 
since you've seen each other or the amount of
time since you've talked. 
It's about that very moment when you find yourself 
doing something and wishing they were right
by yourside... "